happy memorial day!!!

i didn't realize it was memorial day weekend until last week.
my friend told me she was going to the beach for a long weekend, and that was my first indicator that a holiday was approaching! how SAD! where has this month GONE?!

regardless, i should have realized it was coming up when we were notified our NEIGHBORHOOD POOL was opening up!!! and it's open from Memorial Day to Labor Day. go figure. i still managed to overlook it. or put two and two together.

guess i've been distracted.

nevertheless, puffy and i DID trek over to the pool yesterday and he was even brave enough to do a few laps in the 62 degree water. are you JOKING ME? he couldn't speak for the first five minutes he had gotten out....but i think he enjoyed it. i sat on my trusty little lounge chair and proceeded to get burnt. which wasn't my intention, given i only sat out there for an hour -- but this white body has not really seen sun for what feels like years!!!!!

it was really nice to know that once the water warms up -- maybe i can change that.

in other news, my sweet husband wanted to take a picture of me yesterday because he loved my dress so much. gosh, it's the little things, right? i bought it from target for $24 and from his adoration of it -- you'd think i'd spent hundreds. makes me wanna wear it every day -- given you simply don't feel so cute when the scale reminds you that you're packing on weight like a champ.

we had just gotten back from church -- where, ironically -- another girl ran up to me with the same dress on :) must be a popular one!



this has been a rough week...i'm not complaining ...but things physically became more challenging this past week. my stomach HURTS!!! hard to explain but it feels like one of the below and potentially all of the below, depending on when you ask me:

1) a sumo wrestler just beat the crap out of my mid-section.

2) i've just run a marathon and the side-sticker is permanently stabbing my rib-cage. (assuming it would feel pretty hellish to run a marathon, i plan on never learning firsthand)

3) i've just completed 1000 sit-ups. (again....i can't relate to this b/c i've never done it, however, this is how i'd imagine it would feel. which. is a good reason to refrain from EVER attempting it.)

my sides just hurt. mainly my right side. which makes this even WEIRDER.
i guess it's stretching...or something....but it hurts to turn over in bed. it hurts to get out of the car. everything is just sore. i was told this is common and to expect it, but it feels VERY different from what i had imagined it would feel like. same will probably be said of labor as well -- shoooould be interesting!!!

....ah, the long-awaited joys....

but i am still joyful and excited and thrilled to lose a few hours of sleep each night ALREADY....with the baby as the end result....i'm just keeping you posted on the quirks along the way!!!!

also, i love my church.
as i've emphasized on a few occasions, i have never registered, bought anything, and have nothing but a really messy, crappy room that will be "future baby room." and i get an email last week from a girlfriend at church who has an 8mth old baby girl, and wants to lend me all this stuff she wishes she didn't actually SPEND the money on!!!!! I LOVE THAT!!!!

granted, she had a girl. so i was hesitant, thinking she went out and bought a bunch of pink stuff for her firstborn. lo and behold, however, she brought it to church yesterday for me and ....IT'S ALL BLUE AND GREEN!?!?!?! YAY!!!!

so currently, in my house, i have a:

little bouncy, vibrating, massage, seat-thingy! (omg...i dont even know NAMES of this stuff...)



she said it was a LIFESAVER for her and it enabled her to cook dinner, take showers, do laundry and stuff like that. chad's ears perked up b/c anything thats involved in assisting me make dinner is huge. "we'll TAKE IT!" har har har.

then we got a Bumbo-Seat-But-Better....as she called it.
apparently, kids can get out of the bumbo. and they can't get out of this similar contraption.
look how CUTE it is!!!!



ah! i could stare at it all day -- it's the smallest thing i've ever seen. of course her baby was BORN at 10lbs (cringe) ....so she outgrew this puppy pretty fast. scary. THEN what do you do with your kid???

THEN she lent me a little portable baby-bath.
it folds up really cute, "and suffices for the newborn stage....don't buy it. it's a waste of money b/c they outgrow it so quickly!!! here ya go!"
again....SO SMALL!!!!



i'm staring at it in my office right now (pics are of my office, NOT the baby room) and feel especially weirded out by it all. like....it's baby stuff. in myyyyy house. i know this is a particularly novel concept, given i'm SIX MONTHS PREGNANT....but....blah dee blah....i haven't really gone there, in my head, yet.

wow.
so weird.
THANKS CHURCH FRIEND, AEJA!!!
way to BRING IT HOME that this house will look very different in three months, on the inside.
baby gear galore!!!!

in other news -- i have a perinatal specialist appt on tuesday. oh wait. that's tomorrow. gosh, i sound psychotic. at 130PM. they'll be doing some measuring of the baby's size in a level 2 sonogram appt, to make sure he's growing appropriately. i have to admit, i'm feeling anxious. :( so if you could just pray that they send me off with a "totally normal, see you in four weeks!" report, that would be so appreciated..... and also, pray that they don't find anything else in there to cause alarm. they're still watching his brain/heart/kidneys to make sure development is on track -- and our prayer is that IT IS. i'll update tomorrow!

i have my GLUCOSE test on wednesday -- which should be interesting as well. hopefully my blood suger cooperates and again....that all is well!!!!

ok, i should RUN!
today's agenda:

1) hit up the Jos.ABanks sale to get a suit for chad, who's blue suit is so falling apart it's a little embarrassing. if a suit is your uniform -- it's help to have more than -- two.
2) make a surprise visit at a friend's house.
3) go to our old land-lord's house to demand our security deposit back. SURPRISE!!! you won't return our calls, our emails, or our texts -- so guess WHAT! we'll stalk you at your house. i mean, PEOPLE! what is going on here? we need that money back!!!!
4) head to the BBQ :)

have a fabu memorial day and i'll be back tomorrow with updates!!!
xoxo

miss negligent.

yeah.
it's sorta hard to really see how i really don't fit into ANYTHING other than this dress, these days.
but this is me!!! at 23 weeks :)
and of course, this is kristi, a friend who is 34 weeks along, this past saturday -- at her baby shower!! can you even handle how that's not even a maternity dress? the girl is still able to rock a regular ole' dress and here i am, 11 weeks behind her, in maternity gear. sweet. then again, somehow you can pull off anything when you're a cute, tan, blonde chic! but not me.

she's having a boy too -- so it was a great time watching her open gifts -- but also a bit overwhelming. it made me realize how...time...is ticking...and i've purchased ZERO supplies for this baby. and boy, oh, boy, there's ALOT of confusing stuff out there to choose from. i watched with amazement, but also with a bit of trepidation and feeling a bit overwhelmed. where to begin? what am i doing? i couldn't even tell you the last time i've BABYSAT, much less considered what sorta diapers, or lotions, or bottles, or ...ANYTHING...that i want?!

my eyes glazed over when she showed me her new crib that arrived and her fabric swatches for making his bedding, curtains, pillows, and blankets.

my mind went crazy...."am i BEHIND? will i be ready in time?!"

i frantically called two of my close friends to ask when they registered for their showers.
"oh....4-5 mths out from my due date."

i'm inside four months already.
i've enlisted them both to register for me -- given they both have sons under 1 year old.
(glenna, how the HECK did you know what to do when you went to do this?! you must be more baby savvy than myself!)

i need to get on the ball.
i've got NO nursery furniture.
no nursery theme.
no baby clothes.
no registry.

some moms have told me, "who cares.....you only need a moses basket-type thing and some diapers when you bring him home...." which is true. but still. i'm not really a "wing-it" type of girl. and my husband stocks up on Paxil whenever he hears me try to pretend that's how i'll tackle my first months as a mom.

"oh...well...it'll be fine! i guess i'll just learn as i go!"

::: chad runs for cover, muffling sobs, violently shaking his head :::

so, dragging "baby room" out of the cob webs of my mind and at least putting it on the back burner would be appropriate at this point. obviously, i've been incredibly busy with the house and with clients -- but i know i've also done alot of hiding behind those excuses. i've been scared. still too nervous to splurge. too terrified to really....materialize any plans or arrangements.

but....boy.....going to a baby shower really kicked me in the pants.
i'll try to shift gears now, however nervous it makes me. however panicked it makes me feel......